dandelions

life hasn't been great. it's not terrible! but not great.

not just for me, but for those around me and for others too.

these thoughts/emotions have been ruminating within for weeks, or maybe months, but i never got the chance to really quieten down, sit down, and organize them into words.

even now, i'm typing this with thoughts of work in the back of my mind, which i find a disrespect to my time of self-reflection.

but i guess with all that has happened, i just need to begin putting down some of my messy thoughts, before my mind erupts and it all spills over.

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i guess it began since the start of the year, when there was an abnormally high occurrence of flight-related freak accidents

every other day i'd see another news article, and my heart would drop for them.

or maybe even before that, maybe it began last year when a client's attitude after all i had done, made me question "am i going to spend the last remaining bit of my youth doing this?"

or maybe when family members of mine/friends of others started passing on one by one, made me stand still for awhile, and think about the meaning of life before we go.

i'm not too sure.

but what i am sure of, is my current view on how i want to live my life.

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7th June 2025, 2:49PM

(to be continued,つづく)